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When Logan began kindergarten three years ago, I was only weeks out of neuro-surgery. I couldn’t drive him to school. I was puffy from the steroids I was taking, I was tired and my head tingled from all the nerves reconnecting. Despite all of that, I was so happy to be alive and walking him to his first day of school. And time fades all things because I rarely think of them now. What I think of is how amazing it was that I was able to be there for his first day of kindergarten.
Fast forward exactly three years, and now I am recovering once again. I haven’t written because I’m not feeling well. Physically, things have been very up and down since the Cyber-knife treatments. I so badly want to write about how I’m feeling well and that things are going great…but that “feel good” state hasn’t lasted long enough for me to write. So once again, I’m just thankful that I was able to walk my baby girl to her first day of kindergarten.
Headache, exhaustion, hair loss and nausea didn’t matter last Wednesday—all that mattered was that I was here on this earth to take Logan to his first day of third grade and Tuesday to her first day of kindergarten.
They melt my heart! How I love being their momma. When I begin to struggle with the frustrations that I just don’t feel good, I’m trying to cling to the really good things in life. My eternity is secure. My kids laugh. My kids are healthy. Rex and I are in love with one another after 10 years of marriage.
And so, while I’m praying this stint of feeling crappy passes quickly, I’m remembering that even on crappy days, my God loves me and takes care of me, and there are many more things in my life to smile about than cry about.
What about you? What are you smiling about these days?
