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“Talking to men for God is a great thing,
but
talking to God for men is greater still." E.M. Bounds
Ecclesiastes
4:9-10 NIV
"Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work; If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!"
"Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work; If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!"
As I travel this path of conquering a brain tumor, I
am thankful for my friends in life. From
those friends of my early childhood to those I have recently gained, I have
been tremendously blessed by love and encouragement, and cared for in many ways
on my journey. This process is enriched
because of you. Thank you.
It is the eve of my first cyber-knife appointment.
As it turns out, once again, ignoring the obvious has not made it go away. Pushing thoughts of this procedure out of my
mind every time it crept in has not made my tumor go away. Oh, well.
I am fine. I am good. But I am
also unsettled. I could go on and on, writing about all the ups and downs, but that is not going to improve my day or yours. I do know that there is power in prayer. And so today, I am asking, again….will you pray for me?
For the radiation oncologist, the neuro-surgeon and
their team that is overseeing my procedure tomorrow and the following days. Will you pray for their wisdom? That their calculations of areas to be
radiated would be exact and that not a single cell outside of the necessary
area would be harmed, and that my vision would be preserved.
Would you pray that I would tolerate the treatment well? That side effects would be minimal and that swelling of the brain would not be problematic (I do not want to go on steroids!!!). And lastly, would you pray that this treatment would be effective? I mean fully effective and that this tumor would die once and for all! Thank you. Thank you so much.
I am scheduled for an 8:30am check-in tomorrow in
downtown Phoenix at the Barrows. Once
the procedure is underway, it will be 30 minutes to an hour of treatment. I will not know the exact length of treatment
until I arrive tomorrow.
Would you pray that I would tolerate the treatment well? That side effects would be minimal and that swelling of the brain would not be problematic (I do not want to go on steroids!!!). And lastly, would you pray that this treatment would be effective? I mean fully effective and that this tumor would die once and for all! Thank you. Thank you so much.
One last prayer request, one that I write with a tinge
of reluctance. Will you please lift up
my emotional well-being? All the
positive statistics in the world cannot settle my heart or change the raw fact
that I am having what is referred to as a “bloodless brain surgery”
tomorrow. Here's a picture of the machine. As you can see, it's a pretty big deal.
My mind wanders, a lot…my baby girl isn’t even in kindergarten yet, I am only 33, what if this isn’t effective and they have to do neuro-surgery again, how could a laser be that precise…? and on and on it runs.
Would you pray that I would be calm tomorrow? That the Lord would settle my soul in a way that only He can and that I would remember and be comforted by the truth: that my times are in His hands.
I thank you.
From deep within I am overwhelmingly grateful for the love and encouragement
you have all brought to me through this process. My mind wanders, a lot…my baby girl isn’t even in kindergarten yet, I am only 33, what if this isn’t effective and they have to do neuro-surgery again, how could a laser be that precise…? and on and on it runs.
Would you pray that I would be calm tomorrow? That the Lord would settle my soul in a way that only He can and that I would remember and be comforted by the truth: that my times are in His hands.
Chrissy, I am a friend of Danielle. She loves you so very much and we have shared many prayers for you. I want you to know that I am inspired by your walk with God and lifting you up in prayer right now. You are not alone...although I know it must feel as though you are even with a room full of caring people around you. Noone can really understand the depths of your worries. Only God shares those moments with you. I will stop writing now so I can begin praying. May our amazing Father lift your heavy burdens and breathe new energy and life to your cells. May he destroy those cancer cells once and for all. Robin Park
ReplyDeleteoh Friend I am praying for you!!
ReplyDeleteYou will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you. Is 26:3
Chrissy, we met only once at a sushi restaurant in Arizona. My husband is in the military and we sat with your family at the teppanyaki grill. Your beautiful spirit made quite an impression on us. We pray for all of your requests and more. You will be in our thoughts and prayers :) God Bless
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DeleteThanks for the message :) I think of you often! Your baby girls were precious!! Can you msg me your address when you have a sec? Thx
Chrissy
Chrissy; I can't imagine what is going thru your mind today. But try and focus on the good things and enjoy your family to the fullest with love and giggles and happiness today. Let the Angels lift the anxiety and fear and worries away. When all be told it is out of your hands and all the worry in the world won't change anything. Lots of hugs and kisses and I hope you fill your day with your family maybe doing something you never would have done before. Play ball with water balloons and a big plastic bat, have a mud fight, smash watermelon on the cement.....etc etc. Or do what I do and go to a movie. 2 hours of entertainment and not having to think of anything. Hang in there. Trust in your faith and let the angels help guide you through.
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Chrissy, will and have been praying for you! I draw strenght from you. I can't imagine the fears and thoughts you must be having, but still you rely on your faith. What an incredible testimony you are to me and so many others! Be well my friend, Be well!
ReplyDeleteWe are praying for you Chrissy. You are a true inspiration to us. You will have prayers coming your way all morning long- and over the continuing weeks of healing.
ReplyDeleteTammy
We'll be praying for you. I know that God will send his angels to surround all involved and that Jesus will hold you in his arms while the procedure takes place. We love you! Sheryl, Matt & the kids
ReplyDeleteI had my TL a little more than a year ago when my third child was born via c-section. I was not told ANYTHING about the possible side effects of having this procedure. Since then I have experienced heavy bleeding lasting sometimes 3 weeks out of the month, weight gain, severe mood swings. Severe cramping, changes to my libido, severe depression accompanied by suicidal thoughts, headaches, migraines, many new symptoms & older issues are now exacerbated. The father of two of my children doesn't want me anymore. I've become too much of a pain in the ass I guess. We don't talk. We don't sleep in the same bed. I think he might really think I am crazy... & maybe I am. I feel crazy a lot of the time.
ReplyDeleteI'm unpredictable. I feel so angry about the whole thing & now what was once a mild fear of doctors has exploded into full on white coat syndrome that causes me to have a panic attack/hypertensive emergency (severe increase in blood pressure) whenever I have to deal with them. I'm not sure what to do... I fear the next time I have to see a doctor I'll have a stroke or a heart attack from the stress & anxiety of it... what do I do? I take my time and keep searching on internet looking for natural healing that how I came across Dr Itua herbal center website and I was so excited when Dr Itua told me to calm down that he will help me with his natural remedy I put my hope on him so I purchase his herbal medicines which was shipped to my address I used it as prescribed guess what? I'm totally healed my cramp pain is gone completely I also used his Anti Bacteria herbal medicines it's works for me very well I want anyone with health problem to contact Dr Itua herbal center for any kind diseases remedies such as Parkinson, Herpes, ALS, MS, Diabetes, Hepatitis, Hiv/Aids,Cancers, Men & Women Infertility, I got his email address drituaherbalcenter@gmail.com he has any kind of herbal remedies for women & men also for our babes. I really miss my Hunni...he's a fantastic father & a good man. He doesn't deserve this. I feel like an empty shell of who I used to be...