Ignoring reality does not make it go away

Frustration looms. I have written numerous posts over the past few months and never felt it was quite right for publishing, and now I am on the eve of a big appointment and wish I had shared with other people sooner.

As it turns out, ignoring reality does not make it go away.

For months now, I have known about my appointment tomorrow, and decided not to think about it because it was so far away. Now it is tomorrow and I am not settled with the potential outcome.

I have been referred to a radiation oncologist. My tumor has not grown large, but has become dense. My neurosurgeon referred me out to see if it is indeed time for radiation. All I could think was, "Really? Really??" I passionately desire for this to be over and for a wellness card to be sent to my address stating that everything is good.

Until that happens, I’m asking you all for prayer. Pray that I will be strong and that the doctors will have wisdom, knowledge and experience on their side while treating me.

Will you pray that whatever they recommend, I will have peace about it?

Jeremiah 29: 11 states, “For I know the plans that I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

“We’re all encouraged by a leader who stirs us to move ahead, someone who believes we can do the task he has given us all the way. God is that kind of leader. He knows the future, and his plans for us are good and full of hope. As long as God, who knows the future, provides our agenda and goes with us as we fulfill his mission, we can have boundless hope. This does not mean that we will be spared pain, suffering or hardship, but that God will see us through to a glorious conclusion. “ Life Application Study Bible, Zondervan.

It could be a benign appointment. The possibility exists of doing treatment immediately, as well as the possibility of doing it at a later date. Tomorrow I will hear the recommendation.

Awaiting my glorious conclusion-